In my journey of life, several times, I’d experienced hallucinations due to health related problems.
Those series are not my cherished moments yet it is worth recalling in counting God’s abiding grace. In some ways, it is beneficial to me, in the walk of life.
Hallucination may mean, a state of mind or experience involving apparent perception which is not real. Synonyms of hallucination are illusion, delusion, mirage, delirium, and many more.
Let me share you just one instance of the experience:
We were dealing with finance and accounting jobs in the office during those days. In the middle of the day, we can be very busy with our work usurping our mind and energy. The stage was set for my hallucination, and I never knew that.
Being in the capital city of India, Hindi and English are the spoken language, although Hindi edge over English here. At an instance, it suddenly seems that all the persons near me are speaking in one tongue. That too, my native language (mother tongue) and the likes, which was spoken in my hometown some thousand miles away!
This time my vision was not blurred, as I feel it. It’s just that the language spoken or what I heard that makes the difference. Hallucinating, in some ways, the experiences one had gone through can be dissimilar.
The situation was uncontrollable and I seemed to enjoy the atmosphere, as I did not know that I was hallucinating. It was beyond what one could do something.
Still, I was busy working in my computer when it stop happening. Workplace colleagues helped me get home that day.
Several wrong financial transactions were made by me in that short span of time. But then, God’s abiding grace is sufficient for me as there was no such transaction, which cannot be rectified. The occurrence helped me realized the so many good sides of my colleagues.
These few problems showed more of the goodness of my friends. Many times, they sent me home or helped me out.
More importantly, it is a huge privilege to be able to wake up from hallucinating. There is very less or almost nothing one could do when it really happens. It is because of God’s abiding grace only, that we could be living. That’s one among the joys of living.
It gives me joy to be alive and tell the tales of my mild sufferings till now. Yet I am more thankful for everything that we have experienced.
But one thing, in our semi-conscious state, sometimes we tend to utter things which are less valuable. So, dear readers, enjoy the joy of living life to its fullest extent while you can.
And, always remember, you might be more blessed, than some of us, to not have gone through sufferings which might hamper your being. Be happy and stay blessed.
Since His grace is abiding and/or enduring, God knows what is best for us! Yet it is difficult to say that all the time.
Altogether, it constituted, what is called, the Joy of Living!
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